Dear duncs, not going to lie recently things have been
pretty crap, over the past 5 months I have lost pretty much everything but it’s
made me realise what we really are and who I am. When you no longer have the
things you thought defined you that’s when you really discover who you are,
because is what or who we have truly who we are? Why do we base our ideas on
who we are and what our purpose Is off the grades we get, the friends we have,
what other people think of us, our status, the mindless stuff we post on social
media, our plans and freedom and rambling thoughts? We are none of that. Loosing
lot of the stuff I thought made up my life is making me question what truly
determines who we are? Is it our weird little quirks, like how ill only watch TV
on an even volume number, or Is it our likes and dislikes, our opinions,
passions, desires or what drives us which states who we are. It seems like we
spend our whole lives searching for an answer, a statement which just spells out
what we mean as individuals; like some cryptic code, that maybe if we find out
who we are the universe will stop throwing these curveballs at us. We can keep
on loosing and loosing things, we can fall out with all our friends, fail every
test, abandon all our morals, lose all our faith, erase every positive memory
from your head yet you’re still here, breathing, your heart still pumping,
living, so where’s the line? when can we stop losing so we are just left with what
we truly are.
Is losing everything even such a bad thing? If you have
nothing you have nothing to lose you realise
at some point the risk to stay wrapped
up in your empty shell out ways the risk to bloom. Feeling like you have
nothing is a horrible place to be in. but it has taught me something, there is
so much more to life than now, we are always changing and evolving, trying to figure
out who we are is a waste of the people we all are. Sometimes having nothing is
a good thing because you can truly see how much there is to gain.
I’m going to end this here, stay safe, and calmer tan calm,
lots of love x
